More Waiting

It has been a while since I have posted anything b/c I have been posting on infertility bulletin boards lately. It has helped a lot to talk with people who are going through the same thing as I am. I just wish I didn't have to be going through this at all!!

Had my first Dr's appt with Dr. Munson on Wednesday. I was not at all impressed with him!! First of all my appt was at 9am and I didn't get into see him until at least 9:20. Then I was only in there for about 7 minutes!! He did not take any family history and only asked to see my charts. After he looked at my charts he decided that we needed to test dh first b/c he thinks I am ovulating correctly. I agree that Benji needs to be tested, but in 15-20% of cases it is BOTH partners!! I pressed him to test me too, as I was just starting a new cycle and it would be the right time for the tests, but he said it was not necessary yet. UGH!! It is so frustrating!! So now we are just waiting some more. Benji's test was this morning and I go back in a week for the results. It took 6 wks for me to get in to see the dr in the first place- I don' t know why we couldn't have done the SA while I was waiting to get into see him! So tired of waiting!!

If his test comes back and show something wrong I am worried that the dr will just charge ahead without looking at me. So we may go through months of treatment which won't address any problems I may have. I also contacted someone else who had him and she was not pleased with him either. There is a clinic in DSM that I have heard good things about, but my insurance will not cover me there. So I really do not know what to do. This sucks so badly! I am so tired of being infertile!

Found out that Benji's cousin has also been having trouble conceiving- keeps with my theory that it is his side of the family. Lots of friends are announcing that they are on to number 2 and I just think it is so unfair! No one understands the hurt that you feel when you are dealing with infertility. The depression is just so immense.